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Quarantine diaries
I don’t know if I should be surprised anymore… Once again not much went according to plan. Only this time something bigger than me, us, the world. A pandemic!I managed to travel back to my home country before the chaos started, after a few back-and-forths… It didn’t take long before the whole country ended in quarantine. A bit later my flight back home got cancelled… A friend once described my life as ‘soap opera’. I didn’t expect another season that soon! That means no walks by the beach, no meetings with friends, barely with family. But thankful for those I got to spend time with, the Easter baking and the…
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Baby steps
New month, new plans, new trip! Recovering day by day… Trying to get back to a normal life gradually. One step at a time! That’s what they call rehab! So many aspects to consider… and the treatment is not really over! Six months have just passed… Looked at myself in the mirror the other day and for a second I wondered if all that had really happened to me. It feels so strange. But, yes it did; and it’s not over yet! I’ll try to focus on the things I can affect now. Time for a short trip! In between… Perfect time to meet more friends and new ‘little people’!…
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Chemo nr 3!
Third chemotherapy check! I start feeling it more and more… But still trying to hang in there. Not easy though! I could really use a trip right now!! I miss travelling soo much! And there are so many people I’d love to see! The reason I’m not doing it is because of the risk of infections… It’s autumn so high season for such! So for now I’m happy even for short excursions. I’ve had some challenging weeks lately. Turns out focusing on others’ problems wasn’t that smart during the first chemo week. I felt irritated this time and I don’t know what caused it. Exercise helped later on… But the margins…
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End of first month- a short trip
I need a break! Well I’d rather hear that all this is a big joke but that’s not an option. So…eggs in the freezer, all other preparations done. Pack your bags and go! A short visit home, to clear my head, see my loved ones, charge my batteries and get ready for the next step! Just as I hoped! Filled my mind with images and happy thoughts, my heart with love and my stomach with good food 🙂 Somewhere there I decided to cut my hair short…as a preparation! And back to reality! Note to myself: only bother about the things you can affect and work on it!
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Day 5-8. A bit of everything
Realizing that I don’t remember much from the last visit at the hospital, decided to call my nurse to sum up before leaving. She started talking about chemo again…though they tried leaving a little ‘window’ open before. Or was that what I thought..? My memory and concentration suck at the moment. And I can definitely not discuss things as a doctor. As if I had never been one… ‘Keep in mind that you are a patient right now, it’s normal!’ Well no it’s not! Not for me! I’m on the wrong side… Anyway…i need to prepare for the trip! And right after that I’m having guests. Need to fix around…
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Day 4. Butterflies
Migrating butterflies in bunches! Should I take that as a sign? An immigrant myself… Feeling like being in a cocoon (chrysalis to be more accurate) right now… Am I getting out of this? And will I be as colorful afterwards? Love surrounding me in all its forms! Actions and messages (long and short), feelings that people hadn’t expressed before. Things we don’t appreciate until a crisis hits us! Do I really deserve all that? More and more amazing people gathering around me! A cousin that suggests a short trip! Because she knows how much I love travelling! So grateful that she was part of my trips earlier this year! Tickets…