Life 2.0

It’s been a while…an intensive summer, a lot of back and forths, ups and downs. Probably the hardest part so far. The part where I need to find my (new) self and begin all over again. Standing on my own! It’s been challenging and tough. And I’m not even there yet.

I’ve been warned that chemo can lead to fatigue… I didn’t expect what I faced though! Everything seemed to go in slow motion and it took so much longer to do things. Looking like normal was like a double-edged sword! Most people thought I looked as if nothing had happened! But at the same time I felt like a different person.

There were even fun parts though… summer holidays (second attempt), dating… hehe! Didn’t end well but good practice! 😂 And the most important, coming a bit further every day and achieving more goals.

What got me disappointed was the fact that others didn’t seem to understand, probably had expectations I couldn’t meet or maybe send the wrong message in an attempt to make me feel ‘normal’ again. The truth is, nothing is normal! Or better yet, what is normal? Maybe call it the ‘new normal’, like everything else happening around us! My life can’t be the same as it used to be… And in order to move on that was the first thing I had to accept. At times I may wish I could delete the past year. But since I can’t, I try to make the most out of it. Find a new path, a new perspective, things that make me happy and give me a reason to fight on!

It’s amazing to get back on track but if you are going through something similar keep in mind that you can’t run at the same speed as others. Probably not as your old self either… But it’s ok! You’ll get there, at some point! Take your time!

Finding balance isn’t easy (still)! Keep your makeup and smile on, always! And give yourself some credit! You deserve it!