First chemo

Arrived on time. Stressed. Trying to make jokes! I’m getting both the venous catheter and the first treatment today. I guess some stress is acceptable.

Spent the whole morning at the day treatment unit. Nurses walking in and out, a friend for company and first meeting with the therapist! Didn’t even want to leave the place in the end!

Once again I have to acknowledge a nurse’s work. Especially those working with such patients! How do they manage working with cancer all day, every day? ‘If we didn’t know that what we do is meaningful and hadn’t seen all those people getting well, we wouldn’t do it!’ was what my first nurse said.

I admire their patience, their discretion, their empathy and their passion! They know what you are about to say before saying it, what you are thinking without expressing it and maybe what’s at the corner without you knowing! (I know my black humor is not always appreciated but give it a chance!)

Felt well after the treatment and felt so eager to drop by work and say ‘hi’. I was looking forward to going on holiday a month earlier but right now I miss work so much! I’m on a sick leave until further notice by the way… My mind isn’t capable of making important decisions and my body will soon be fragile… But I will be back some day!