Day 5-8. A bit of everything

Realizing that I don’t remember much from the last visit at the hospital, decided to call my nurse to sum up before leaving. She started talking about chemo again…though they tried leaving a little ‘window’ open before. Or was that what I thought..?

My memory and concentration suck at the moment. And I can definitely not discuss things as a doctor. As if I had never been one… ‘Keep in mind that you are a patient right now, it’s normal!’ Well no it’s not! Not for me! I’m on the wrong side…

Anyway…i need to prepare for the trip! And right after that I’m having guests. Need to fix around the house. Some sort of work therapy! It worked!

The trip was exactly what I needed! Came home with an uplifting fridge magnet and a fun keyring as a gift! Goodbye wasn’t easy though…for a couple of days managed to feel like I had a life again. And now back to hell!

Trying to prepare myself for the worst scenario so that I wouldn’t be as shocked next time. Will it work?