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Turning point
Here we are again… Same waiting room, same or maybe more stress (completely unprepared back then!). Got here early and I hope it suppresses my anxiety this time. That’s why I started this post. Waiting for results is worse than coping with it. The fear of the unknown…or maybe knowing too much, but then again not enough. Alone…once again! But am I really? I know there are people all over the world (literally) thinking of me right now. And my day started with positive thoughts already! So much is at stake right now… at least for my part. For them it’s either A or B, as they said. Couldn’t stop…
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Me and my busy mind
The past year was a total chaos. Just when I thought my life was about to start again…it did! In a much different way than expected though. I was looking forward to fun things happening but instead faced losses. Some of them bigger than others. Why is this happening? No idea… Through this journey I’ve experienced positive things as well. Some of them already named before. Last I can recall, a loud, genuine laugh among a group of women with breast cancer, some of them in a worse situation than mine. My thoughts and mood vary from day to day. Reflecting back on life choices, moments, people in my life.…
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Happy New Year
Trying to recover after last chemo. It went quite well. Had a ‘quiet’ Christmas… I guess I’m not doing so much quiet after all this! During my last doctor’s appointment I had mentioned that I was worried about my other breast. We went back and forth discussing if there was or wasn’t something. I insisted on having a new ultrasound. And I got an appointment… Two days before new year’s. Arriving there I had to show what I was palpating. The nurse was eager to point out that I was doing it the wrong way. Well…my response wasn’t that nice. Though I started with the sentence ‘don’t mean to be…