2 weeks post-op

The other big ‘thing’ related to my cancer is that I can’t have kids anytime soon… Another irony (for those knowing details of my past)! Chemo is going to destroy my eggs so my doctors suggest I freeze them in advance! Injections, frequent check-ups and a minimal procedure. Not the most fun part of the journey…

That started while I was waiting for the CT-scan results. Felt so weird planning for something I didn’t know if I would make it to.

I had a scheduled appointment for the results. The surgeon decided to give me a call early in the morning. ‘I have good news and I thought you could skip the anxiety until the afternoon. Your scan is clear!’

‘That’s great!! Did they check twice..?’ (what else would I say?)

That is the greatest news so far! Any other findings would complicate things. I felt that I could breathe again! Until now it was as if I was walking on the edge, on brittle ground. And all of a sudden someone grabs my hand!

Enjoyed the day with my sister and cousin and then on time for the appointment. Probably the best mood in weeks! We kept talking about chemo, radiation treatment, maybe further surgery, a permanent venous catheter… Things that would scare the sh- out of me (of anyone maybe) if I hadn’t known that things could have been worse!

Left the hospital smiling…the fight is on!

It’s really incredible how our mind works (or doesn’t!) in such circumstances. Having so many different thoughts, mixed up or one after another, trying to find my way through this. My very own way because I don’t think there’s a path to follow… Luckily I have so many caring people around me. People that remind me that I had a life before all that and hopefully a life afterwards! And I’m probably going through hell but I’ll get there!